steaming mad ?!@#$*!

my mom used to tell me when i was young, when i was very, very angry, i should turn my back and count slowly from 1 to 10 then say a prayer. that time, it seemed very simple to me and i have always used this tool to keep my sanity despite the evil forces working around me.
lately though, i feel i am being taunted too much and being pushed slowly off the edge. this person has been getting on my nerves and though i want to spite back, i know that it is immature, irrational & in doing so, i lose! how come there are people who can't just leave you alone and mind their own business. they endlessly try to outdo everything you do well, make sure that people notice that you're lower than they are and put you down cunningly behind your back (lest make sure that it gets to you anyway). makes you wanna forget all your humility and be proud of how far you are in all aspects of life compared to...
i guess we can only call this person one thing...insecure. yes, insecurity can make us look like we're winners yet feel like losers deep inside. only those who have a deep sense of confidence and know the true meaning of happiness can go on the daily tasks of life without ever wondering how high up the ladder they have been, not merely looking down on those following the steps but extending a hand to help everybody move up. these are the people who truly deserve respect, and of which i hope to be if i haven't been practicing yet.
but the best gauge of success is truly not how you talk to others about yourself, but how others talk about you. and i know that by this, i am way ahead and i have no need to prove this person wrong because people know who i am and what i have become and have great respect for me!

open... shut them!

this is a song we normally sing to kyle during our play time. of course, we have mastered this from our monday playgroup. but yesterday, it was the first time i saw her holding up her fist and actually opening and closing it when i sing the song... it was so cute. and she was giggling the whole time i was smiling at her new discovery.

kyle just turned 7 months and though she was down for a few days with hand, foot & mouth (weird! still don't know how she got it), i'm very proud of her because she never was fussy the whole time. what's even better is she didn't contract fever and sores in her mouth nor face. concentrated lang sa legs then some in the arms and torso.

aside from this, she can also crawl very fast now and even starting to cruise, quite early for her age as most are just starting to crawl by now. when she wakes up, we normally find her standing up on her own near the head of the bed. and when we place her in the playpen, she would quickly stand up and look proud and smile at you.

so even if we missed last monday's playgroup, we still didn't miss out much on the fun because mama & yaya were her playgroup mates. we do bubble time, lap ride, parachute & of course, her favorite song now... open, shut them. open, shut them. give a little clap! clap! clap! :)